AHHH!! I’m so nervous about this. Look at the other presenters! And why is my name first !???!
I am having a crisis of self-confidence. Luckily presentations are limited to 25 minutes and papers to 4000 words. Am I in way over my head here? It seems like everyone else is actually doing important research. I’m just writing about my observations and experiences. I need to go get some Xanax. Anyway, my paper is almost finished, but I am terrified that it sucks. I hadn’t really looked at it since I sent in the abstract in November, and when I first tried to start working on it again, I was instantly horrified. I have no idea what I am talking about.
Anyway, I still have time to save myself, and my career. Also the director has informed me that he has to approve the paper before I submit it to CONSAL… so I can’t say anything too critical of Laos, the Lao government, the Univeristy, the library, or him!
I am going to go to the temple (Wat Si Muang) today to ask for a blessing for good luck for my presentation. I hope Buddha helps me out on this one!
I don’t know if I can handle this stressful academic lifestyle. Why didn’t I just become a hairdresser like my mother?
Oh but I did have a really successful workshop yesterday training the staff of the library on using the internet for scholarly research… I’ll attach a PDF version of my presentation.
Ok, I can’t get the .pdf to attach, I don’t know why. I’ll try again later.